3am

I'm not really sure why I'm starting this sleep journal online verses just keeping this information personal and writing it into a black hard covered paper journal that I can keep private. All my thoughts would be safe there. One possible answer to this question could be that I/we live in a time were everything we do ends up online. I fear I've fallen into a routine of contributing to the internet. I enjoy it. It's less clutter I have to keep and organize in my small apartment. It's organized here.

I'm starting a sleep journal because I want to record my sleeping tendencies, thoughts, and experiences. I often find myself staying up late into the night. I'll browse websites, watch videos, etc. Its like I can't go to sleep until I'm completely exhausted. I would really like to get to a place were I can go to bed and just fall asleep. I find that once I'm in bed I often think about things, not things that I have to do (sometimes), but lately things that I want to do. I like to think about things. I feel that this journal will help me gain a new perspective on sleep. It can't be a terrible topic to journal about... I will spend a good portion of my life sleeping. So I want to understand it. Also, I want sleep to become an experience in my life. I don't want to waste any moment I have here. However, my girlfriend told me that wasting time is subjective because what might be a waste of time to one person, another might consider a meaningful use of it. So when people say, "Stop wasting time, it doesn't really make sense." Who's time? My time or your time, and how can we judge who's right? Society has created a rules for time, based off previous societies and so on. A general rule has been created that is suppose to guide us on how we spend our time. But what if my goals are different then societies? It dangerous to fall into it's trends without thinking about the possibilities. When I start to think about society and the mold that it places on me, both good and bad. I sometimes need to stop to remind myself that just because society is one way doesn't mean that it's the only way. I seem to prefer the path less traveled. I guess it makes me feel like more of a pioneer. I like to remind myself that I am free. I am free to think what I want and go where I want. It's a very exciting to look at the world with endless possibilities.